My memory book

I don’t even know where to start from. Words don’t come easy at times like these. It has been a journey full of experiences- A journey of lifetime. We met as strangers. Never did we realize we will be a part of each other’s lives forever.  When you are 24/7 with someone, you tend to get close. You have no choices. No matter how much you dislike a person but you cannot stay away from them because somewhere, they have become a part of your story and you, theirs. Every one we know, they all have labels of their stories.

Such is my story and the label is “Dreamer”. Do I even need to tell that?! I cannot be thankful enough to God for this wonderful chapter of my life which is full of so many characters- each one with different story. I thank you all for making me a part of your stories. Life has been tough dealing with all our daily problems. But with you all by my side, it was kind of fun to face them, because I know it was not just me, but we all were going through similar downfalls. It is funny that although we all have our own stories, yet it has been almost the same for the past one and a half years. Each story has a label- many a times not very visible. But we just have to make a little effort to read it. And that’s the tricky thing about labels. Once in a while they tell us everything we need to know. But most of the times, it is a very small part of the story. Slapping a word or two on a person can make things worse. In reality, nothing is as simple as the label may depict it. I have misinterpreted so many labels. I am sorry for all those times.

My label too has been misinterpreted so many times. I am not perfect. I make mistakes. And I learn from them. I have been good and I have been bad. And I have been more than bad.  Thank you all for bearing with me when I was at my worst. I know my stubbornness can get a little too much to take, but you all have taken it and accepted me like that. I may never show it or say it, but you all have played a very important role in shaping my life. Where ever I go, whatever I am, I shall never forget the love showered upon me. I also learnt a few lessons that will last me my lifetime. I don’t know whether to be thankful for those, because as much as I have learnt from them, they have broken me somewhere. But nevertheless “C’est la vie”.

God bless… 

Love at first sight!

There is something about Mumbai that makes everyone fall in love with it. And I am the latest victim to it. I have just been to Mumbai twice. On my first visit, I thought I fell in love with it. My second visit just confirmed. But indeed it was love at first sight!

How and where do I even begin? The city is so full of life. Everybody is always on the move. As if they will lose out on their life even if they stop for some time. Well, who knows? And nobody is really bothered if you are matching their pace or even walking with them. You have to make your own efforts and make your way through to get ahead of all. It is so motivating. It is at least to me.

Mumbai Locals- the two words are enough! The experience is amazing. You have to be very careful at the peak hours but you get to see all kinds of people- students, teachers, travelers, office goers etc. and they are all so busy in their own lives. It is like the locals are a city in itself because it literally is the medium of travel for millions of people daily.

Gateway of India- the view of the endless and so many ships floating in there just makes you feel so happy about everything. And the Taj Mahal Palace Hotel is just the icing on the cake. You feel so proud of just being a part of everything.

Marine Drive- I had only dreamt of going there, sitting by the endless sea at night and just looking at it. I had forgotten my own theory for a life- "Dreams do come true!" And here i was sitting by the sea, watching the sea waves come and go, watching the airplanes take off and land at a distance. It was a different feeling altogether; something that cannot be explained, just felt. The smile just stuck on my face. It simply refused to go. I was genuinely very happy (one of those rare moments). I so wanted the time to just stop so that i could live in that moment for as long as I wanted. It didn't, of course!

But I was super lucky to have got a chance to spend the night in a sea-facing flat, on the 20th floor, which meant the flat also faced the Bandra-Worli sea-link. It is a view i will not forget all my life. All night, I just sit by the window, admiring the rising and falling sea waves, airplanes taking off and landing, Mumbai skyline and the contant traffic on the sea-link and the other roads I could see. Surely, this city never sleeps. But I did, sitting by the window itself. And it is a sleep I will dream of forever!

50 random things about the dreamer...

    1.     I am not easy to handle.

    2.    I am a diehard believer. I believe in whatever I believe in and trust me on my words I have never been let down. Ok... let me put it in other words- I am the biggest dreamer you would ever meet.

    3.    I prefer salty than sweet.

    4.    99% of the time I am in myself, I have no answer for it.

    5.    I can spend days in library- reading is my passion & love. I want to own my own library some day.

    6.    I love being alone. Solitude to me is bliss.

    7.    I observe people a lot.

    8.    I go quiet when I am hurt.

    9.    I have too many dreams to come true in one lifetime. But I still believe they will all come true (refer point 2)

    10. I want to go and live in a place where no one knows me.

    11.  I am too spoilt a girl. If you are not willing to pamper me, I won’t love you.

    12. I need my space and time, no matter who you are. Give me that!

    13. Most people think I am too secretive/ arrogant/ reserved.

    14. I get bored of things too soon.

  

    15. I am a Capricorn to the core.

    16. I fall for people who inspire me.

    17. I cry a lot. 

    18. I love blue lays and coke and coffee is my addiction.

    19. Babies make me happier; playing with them makes me feel great.

    20. God is my closest friend. Only he understands me and is responsible for turning all my dreams into reality.

    21.  Given a chance, I would probably go back a few years of my life and live there forever. I hate growing up.

    22. I am an observer. I observe human behavior way too much.

    23. I am a dreamer for myself and very practical for everything else.

    24. I am a sucker for chick-lits, chick-flicks romance.

    25. I live in a world that practically doesn’t exist (refer point 23).

    26. I live by “Everything happens for a reason”.

    27. I want to do the craziest of adventures- parasailing, deep sea diving, bungee jumping etc.

    28. I miss the 90s cartoons- Heidi, Talespin, Ducktales, Captain Planet, Dexter’s lab, Powerpuff girls, The Flintstones, Adams Family, Gummi Bears, Chip n Dale, Scooby doo, Tom and jerry, Swat kats and I could carry on and on. The cartoons these days are a waste of time!

    29. I loved the “Picnic” chocolate and haven’t been able to understand till date as to why did they stop it?

    30. One of the many reasons that i want to get married is that I want to have a daughter.

    31. I am a hard core, die hard, hopeless kind of a lover girl.

    32. I love mountains.

    33. I cry even while watching dumb movies eg Kambakth Ishq and Golmaal 3. Yupp that is me!

    34. Of late, I have started getting irritated by too talkative and immature people. Why can’t we all just grow up and behave like the age we are?? (of course, being stupid is fun sometimes).

    35. I am attracted towards people who are not easy to be understood.

    36. I am an organization freak! Sitting here in Pune, I can tell what is lying on the left side of the second drawer of my dresser.

    37. I give it back to people in their own language, only a bit refined, sooner or later.

    38. I don’t forgive easily. But I don’t hold grudges either. To avoid any kind of mess, I simply avoid the person.

    39. I love to click and get clicked. 30 GB of pictures in the last 5 years is more than enough to prove that I guess ;)

    40. I miss home a lot more than I actually thought I would.

    41. I value my relationships and I am a family girl.

    42. I laugh loud and at times I don’t even know the reason for laughing.

    43. I put on weight easily. That is because I have no control on my diet and am a food-a-holic to the core. Typical Punjabi!

    44. I love Priyanka Chopra- the way she carries herself, her attitude, her elegance and everything about her. And I admire Dr. Kiran Bedi for who she is and for all the inspiration she has given me to become the woman of substance.

    45. I love my girlfriends and miss them a lot- from movies to just sitting and talking to eating out to shopping et al. I just can’t wait to go back home and re-unite with them.

    46. I never forgive the compliments people give me, the best one being- “If people had enemies like me, they wouldn’t need friends” *blush*

    47. I don’t share my secrets and wishes with anyone in this world. There are some things that just belong to me and my little dream world.

    48. I am selfish. Period.

    49. I want to write books some day.

    50. I am completely obsessed with myself and love myself above all. 

The Life Diaries!

So I started watching “The Carries Diaries” and must I say I am totally in love with it. I read the book by the same name last year and I loved it as well. Just that, I can relate to it now. Or shall I say I can completely relate to it now- big city, managing new and old relationships, internships and the most difficult- finding yourself and creating your identity! And in the whole process- I seemed to have lost “the real me”, if that makes any sense. Just till about 8 months back, i.e. when I stepped into this big city- Pune, I used to find the above said to be like a really cool and fun, as in like some adventure trip where you get to find the purpose of your existence, which by the way is true to quite an extent with the only difference that instead of cool, it is very complicated. And this “complicated” part overpowers the “fun” part so much that after a little while, the “fun” part seems to disappear completely.

It is hard to believe how everything has changed for me in the past 8 months, except for the fact, that I still am the same “day dreamer” as I have been all my life. That, I doubt, will ever change! But at the same time I feel I am still the same Puneet. Remember “COMPLICATED”? It is difficult to understand why these entire dilemmas occur? We can either be negative about finding its answer or positive. Either ways, the situation won’t change. So why not take it in a positive way and accept all these transitions and be happy. I know it is NOT easy. There have been so many times I have broke down completely just because either I am not able to understand myself or (like always) no one understands me or worse still, no one even makes an attempt to understand me.  That’s sad, But I have a positive answer for that too- No one else gets to know me “the REAL me” and so I have all the privilege of knowing myself. Does that even make any sense?

I have always believed, still believe and will continue to believe that “Everything happens for a reason”. Ring any bells? Yes, I have already written about the same phrase. I keep going back to my favorite things. Or should I say I keep improving on them with each passing day. But it gets very hard at times. There comes a time when I lose it completely and I don’t know what to do? My life’s current scenario, juggled up in everything. But I’m sure it’s just a phase and will pass in no time. Fingers cross!!  

Knock knock... It is 2013!

Happy New Year. It is the first post that I am writing of 2013 and I cannot even believe its 2013 already, but it is. I hope all you guys had an amazing new years eve and new year’s day. Mine was exceptional! I sat for 3 exams- economics, accounts and human resource systems. And accounts exam was super exceptionally bad!! But it’s ok… New Year, new start, fresh start and its going to be great. I’m very excited for what 2013 has to bring and I believe it is going to be an amazing year and I wish you all too a fabulous and fun 2013! Its time to sparkle and shine, do all that we couldn’t in 2012, eat, drink, study, love, smile, learn and lots more. Let us make the most of it so that it is just not another year when we look back someday in life!  Stay blessed J